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I have recovered from the disease of Alcoholism. I believe there is only one person really,.. everybody. And that peace of mind is everything. -So treat your neighbor as you would treat yourself, because your neighbor IS yourself. I think most of recovery is what I would call common sense, but that learning to be ordinary is a true gift very few people acquire. My ambition is to accept everything unflinchingly, with compassion, and therefore be intrinsically comfortable in my own skin, no matter what. I am comfortable being uncomfortable and am willing to go to any lengths to improve my life. I believe the Big Book was divinely inspired, and is extraordinarily powerful. Unfortunately AA's best kept secret a lot of the time. (In my opinion). I just try to do what works, no matter what it is.

Friday, August 21, 2009

When everything is going wrong

There is so much drama accompanying this recession. Work, health. You name it.

I was listening to this talk called Fearless Mountain on the way home yesterday, and it is PERFECT for these recession-hit times. Amaro talks about how to accept when things fall apart, go completely wrong. He explains it so well, I really 'got it' about how the 'imperfect' IS 'perfect' just as it is. Was very refreshing. So I just thought I would mention it.
Have to head off to work, so have yourselves a ! fabulous day, even if it is riddled with events that fall short of your expectations.
Perhaps I have very low expectations?, or I have high levels of acceptance?. Either way, i tend to take all the chaos with a pinch of salt. But then I have newcomers to thank for that, as they bestow the gift of perspective (!) on my predisposition toward negativity. Gawd knows. All I know is that I find it all a bit of a laugh. Could be the running, newcomers, Amaro or service. i don't know. but it is a great privilege to feel good when so many others at work are suffering with various insecurities. Bless em.
Right I'm off.

Fearless Mountain
June 6th, 2006
Ajahn Amaro

PS. Even better! ..my wizard new diet software tells me I am a half stone lighter, so I am very happy with my ? 20 dollar investment :)

Monday, August 10, 2009

60 hour work weeks and waaay too much to do :)

This so called restful summer has turned into quite an eventful and full-up one! Trouble !! at work, unscheduled revision to remind myself of what I have learned and forgotten!, applications that would always involve a very high rate of rejection are even more so! Thankfully I have met enough people who are a lot more experienced than me in these matters to help me figure these things out. (BTW they are 'A power greater than me' in that regard.) I still find I meet MANY 'Powers greater than me' every day. Thank God.

I have been putting in a lot of hours for the last ? 6 weeks or so, and there isn't much let up. And I have been going to more meetings to reduce stress. Plus I discovered two !!!!! great pieces of diet software which means I am losing the weight I gained while spending too much time sitting reading books instead of charging about as usual. I LOVE watching the graph nosedive over the weeks :)
And I've got a whole ! pile of new stuff to do in Sept. It never ends!
so basically my life contains all the stuff that many other people are going through at the moment. Staff reductions at work, job insecurity, trying to steer into more secure jobs, and dealing with the additional demands that creates, such as learning new skills and the extra curricular study, applications, rejections and everything else :)
I am very grateful for AA at times like these, and the newcomers. It really is the pub with no beer :) It makes this demanding period much more manageable.
I better go off and make some lists! That and a good strong mug of tea!

I have a busy day in front of me :)
Have a lovely Monday!