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I have recovered from the disease of Alcoholism. I believe there is only one person really,.. everybody. And that peace of mind is everything. -So treat your neighbor as you would treat yourself, because your neighbor IS yourself. I think most of recovery is what I would call common sense, but that learning to be ordinary is a true gift very few people acquire. My ambition is to accept everything unflinchingly, with compassion, and therefore be intrinsically comfortable in my own skin, no matter what. I am comfortable being uncomfortable and am willing to go to any lengths to improve my life. I believe the Big Book was divinely inspired, and is extraordinarily powerful. Unfortunately AA's best kept secret a lot of the time. (In my opinion). I just try to do what works, no matter what it is.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Two Wolves

Two Wolves
by unknown

An elder Cherokee Native American was teaching his Grandchildren about life. He said to them, “A fight is going on inside me… it is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.

“One wolf represents fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

“The other stands for joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.

“This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every other person, too.”

They thought about it for a minute and then one child asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”

Sober Steve reminded me of this when he mentioned this in his blog. This is GREAT and reminds me of what I am doing with this 'The secret' thing. Its one of those things that is so basic that I wanted to put it on here so I could find it later. Its REALLY true. Thich Nhat Hanh says something very similar. He calls them 'seeds' not wolves. Meaning what you think about, nourishes different 'seeds' within us.

Right off to the gym! Thank GOD I no longer feel like a MOOSE. Hhahaa. I really need to groom. Tan, exfoliate, fancy facial etc etc and all that to feel half human. Such a relief! to be back on track a bit. Just the weight to do! It just feels really nice getting back to some sort of normality. I would like to try doing 1500cals in the gym instead of the usual 1000 odd to help shift the extra. Takes a bit longer, but its worth it.
Its GORGEOUS weather here today. Hope you have a GREAT Thursday!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

The Secret is GREAT! An excuse for a mental spring clean!

I read about the Film called The Secret on Dharma's Blog , so I looked it up. Thank you Dharma!!
Anyway I will give you a DVD of this if I see you as its pretty cool. But if I don't see you you'll just have to get your own copy!
I've studied Metaphysics since I read The Sermon on the Mount by Emmet Fox years ! ago. I don't really make a huge effort to do it, but I have always thought it worked. Anyway , lets say I am doing a little revision of this subject.
I happen to think this film does a very good job of explaining the subject overall, and saves you having to read a TON of books from the Metaphysics section in Watkins.

Basically the principle is
You move towards. and become like, that which you think about. Whether it is good for you, Or bad for you.

So knowing that. Our 'job' is to
Decide what you want, and then focus on it.

The alternative is to get 'pulled' this way and that by very UNintentional thoughts!
So that's what I'm busy doing at the moment.
Revising in a VERY SPECIFIC WAY, what I want, so that I can bring it into my awareness more clearly, and also to help me notice where I am gravitating in my thoughts to what I do NOT want, with the aim of addressing those and countering them. A bit of a mental spring clean, so to speak.

Hey thanks everyone for all your kind comments and what have you. It was very sweet of you to drop by and say something nice. I hope y'all have been well and prospering!
My studies are done for a few months. Hopefully! Might be resits, I don't know, but I plan on getting other projects done while the study demands are less. Bit of catching up at the gym to do and what not. Back to the old routine. I feel like a bit of a 'spring clean' so to speak. Clear away a few cobwebs. I have actually got quite a lot of stuff to figure out at the moment! Some things have been neglected due to study, so I need to get those back on track! The task seems quite daunting! Losing weight gained, or reducing my fat percentage, resuming a pretty draconian diet! Getting back to my normal grooming regime. All that girlified stuff that us ladies need to do! Loads really. The good news is that I am feeling pretty motivated at the moment, so I plan on using that momentum to get where I want to get to.

I'm feeling very intolerant of negativity while I refocus on the positive stuff, so I want to avoid negative family members while I figure out this stuff. They are a bunch of energy vampires! I'm feeling very conscious of the fact I have some free time to put to good use, so I have good intentions to make the most of it.
Anyway I am going to get busy doing that, so I'm off! Have a great Wednesday!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Scary exams at 10am on the 14th and 21st May. Wish me luck!

Hey I KNOW its a high class problem and I know a MILLION other things everyone else is dealing with that are !!!! LOADS worse than this, but this is my current little opportunity to make myself stressed.
My flower remedies and essential oils are of great help I have to say.
I use incense, crystals, essential oils, sprays. Hahaaaha. Funny. Its AGES since I've dug out some of those old remedies. They're GREAT.

Peppermint, Black pepper, and Thyme are ! GREAT for physical, emotional and mental energy. The mind just never seems to get fatigued. Perhaps it will later? Who knows. So far its been great.
Vetiver/ lavender combo are GREAT for chilling.
And the occasional chamomile roman works a treat! Seems to just wipe out stress altogether. Rose is great too but its an indulgence.
I use them in oil burners in the main. But I digress. The only decent supplier is Fragrant earth in Glastonbury. Patricia Davis (author) is the essential oil guru.
Ipods algerian coffee and all my mad hippy remedies are a TOTAL boon with this stuff. But there you go.

So, see you back here after the 21st! When I can ! relax a bit, and get back to my normal routine. (for a while hopefully). I can't wait to pamper myself and get back to 'proper' gym. Hope you are all well and doing good in the meantime!