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I have recovered from the disease of Alcoholism. I believe there is only one person really,.. everybody. And that peace of mind is everything. -So treat your neighbor as you would treat yourself, because your neighbor IS yourself. I think most of recovery is what I would call common sense, but that learning to be ordinary is a true gift very few people acquire. My ambition is to accept everything unflinchingly, with compassion, and therefore be intrinsically comfortable in my own skin, no matter what. I am comfortable being uncomfortable and am willing to go to any lengths to improve my life. I believe the Big Book was divinely inspired, and is extraordinarily powerful. Unfortunately AA's best kept secret a lot of the time. (In my opinion). I just try to do what works, no matter what it is.

Monday, May 09, 2011

I think my dad is dying. I think his time has come..

I think my dad is dying. I think his time has come.. so I'm off to see him. It might be a false alarm, but we shall see. Wish me luck and if you have time to send a few positive thoughts his way that would be much appreciated. He's been terminally ill for a while now, so we all knew it was coming. But I am just going to go over and try to be a nice human being, as thats all I can do at this stage. For all I know its just a bad downturn today, but i just wanted to mention it here as I've appreciated your kind comments and support in the past and I wanted to put it out there so that the recovery blogsphere could perhaps send a few helpful thoughts his way if he is about to make the great transition. God love him. He must be feeling very lousy and confused poor thing. I hope I can have a grounding and settling presence for him while he feels all over the place and not quite right to say the least. He's been in a lot of pain and he has found the loss of various abilities very hard to take, so I think he has lost the will to hang on now that getting around in the smallest way is so hard. Being old is not for sissies.
Any kind thoughts would be appreciated, and I hope your world is treating you kindly today. Thanks in advance. I love the network of friendship and support that comes to life through the recovery blogs. I better go, but I just wanted to let you know before I set off. Thanks :) I will keep you posted..

14 comments:

Mike Golch said...

I'll keep you in my prayers.

An Irish Friend of Bill said...

Thanks Mike. Very kind of you. :)

Richard Carroll Sheehan said...

Luck.

We are all heading the same way

Some of us are doing it sober.

Syd said...

I am thinking of you and your dad. It is hard to see a parent in failing health. Please know that I pray for the sick and suffering every day. Take care.

NOS said...

I'm so sorry to hear your dad is sick. You and he are in my thoughts.

I think going to visit him is the best thing you could do for him. This may sound totally cheesy, but what sick people really need is love. And I think you have plenty to give.

Wishing you and your dad well,
NOS

Smitty said...

You are traveling the good-bye path and I know it is not easy. Know that your presence even if not acknowledged by your Father, is making a difference in his life. The good-byes are important even if the other person cannot answer. They need us to let them go.

Di-Git said...

Thinking of you tonight.

Prayer for Freedom From Suffering
May all beings everywhere plagued
with sufferings of body and mind
quickly be freed from their illnesses.
May those frightened cease to be afraid,
and may those bound be free.
May the powerless find power,
and may people think of befriending
one another.
May those who find themselves in trackless,
fearful wilderness--
the children, the aged, the unprotected--
be guarded by beneficent celestials,
and may they swiftly attain Buddhahood.

An Irish Friend of Bill said...

Thank you everyone. I think your prayers really worked as he was awake and talking when I saw him. We had a great chat, and I think he knows it is not long now, but he was in much better spirits and was able to get up and have a cup of tea on the sofa by the time I left this morning. Its such a gorgeous day over here. really hot and sunny which is great too. Thank you. I totally believe in the power of prayer and kind thoughts, and all I know was that he was in much better shape this morning.. :)

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

God be with you and your dad!

Lydia said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Mary said...

My mom has Alcohol Demenia & lives in a nursing home...so I can relate when you say "getting old is not for sissies"..its so hard to watch those we love suffer..bless you for being a loving presence..I will pray for grace & peace for you!
Check out my blog on caregiving called
"Caregiving with Grace:finding God in Alcohol Dementia...maryjsnustad@wordpress.com

Patty said...

Just stopping by to say hello and read of you Dad. Sending prayers your way Irish :)

Guinevere said...

So sorry to hear about your dad. Holding you in the Light...

Anonymous said...

I enjoyed your blog. My brother died when he was 21, i like to think we will all meet up there. Thanks for your blog. love to your dad & you, karen xx