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I have recovered from the disease of Alcoholism. I believe there is only one person really,.. everybody. And that peace of mind is everything. -So treat your neighbor as you would treat yourself, because your neighbor IS yourself. I think most of recovery is what I would call common sense, but that learning to be ordinary is a true gift very few people acquire. My ambition is to accept everything unflinchingly, with compassion, and therefore be intrinsically comfortable in my own skin, no matter what. I am comfortable being uncomfortable and am willing to go to any lengths to improve my life. I believe the Big Book was divinely inspired, and is extraordinarily powerful. Unfortunately AA's best kept secret a lot of the time. (In my opinion). I just try to do what works, no matter what it is.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

You don't stop making STUPID mistakes after step 9

Sometimes REALLY BAD stupid mistakes.
Sometimes stupid mistakes that throw EVERYTHING YOU HAVE WORKED FOR into jeopardy.
The BAD new is, that ALL humans make mistakes. You NEVER stop making them. And you don't get to choose what kind of mistakes you make. It might be just mildly stupid, or it might be devastating. You will will NOT get to choose which kind you will be making next... Even after step 9. That choice will ALWAYS be denied you.

So what's the point of doing the first nine steps I hear you ask?
So that you can 'clear a channel' by 'Having a spiritual awakening as a result of doing the steps'
That will enable your higher power to..
'keep you unharmed', despite you ending up on the 'firing line' once more!

As in the big book quote...
Keep on the firing line of life with these motives and God WILL, (not might) keep you unharmed=

So for me,
Looking for opportunities 'to be of MAXIMUM HELPFULNESS

are for me, a form of 'life insurance policy' against my own (potentially FATAL) STUPIDITY.

I thank God for sparing me (so far) from the most awful consequences of my mistakes in recovery. I just try to be helpful, and I seem to stay out of really bad trouble. That's all I know. But I've seen it so many times now, where people REALLY do seem to be LOOKED AFTER that I just don't question it anymore.
Obviously I could never prove it, but I just believe it. That's all.

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