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I have recovered from the disease of Alcoholism. I believe there is only one person really,.. everybody. And that peace of mind is everything. -So treat your neighbor as you would treat yourself, because your neighbor IS yourself. I think most of recovery is what I would call common sense, but that learning to be ordinary is a true gift very few people acquire. My ambition is to accept everything unflinchingly, with compassion, and therefore be intrinsically comfortable in my own skin, no matter what. I am comfortable being uncomfortable and am willing to go to any lengths to improve my life. I believe the Big Book was divinely inspired, and is extraordinarily powerful. Unfortunately AA's best kept secret a lot of the time. (In my opinion). I just try to do what works, no matter what it is.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Wow. Even I am surprised how quickly I get over things these days

I can't believe how 'normal' I feel after the crummy guy at work thing the other day. I will NEVER understand how this thing works. It baffles me UTTERLY. Even to this day.
Even though I've seen it work a million times, I'm still in awe when I see new people get better. It stuns me to see people transform.
I find a BIG factor in healing is 'surrendering to the moment' no matter what it is. All I know is that I am in a position after many years practice (!!) to to really accept whatever I happen to be experiencing. Even though it might be unpleasant. The weird thing is, that the more I seem to accept it, the quicker it changes into something else.
I don't know about you, but to me this is INFINITELY better than any therapy I've ever seen or come across. I ADORE the totally inexplicable aspects of this recovery path. It IS like witnessing miracles every day! I'm not kidding, but I really DO rely on them! Sounds really naff I know, but I really DO.
I am SO glad I do NOT rely on the rule of logic or therapeutic precedent to guide me through these aspects of my dysfunction.
Isn't recovery amazing? I think it is.
So many times I have been faced with (what I consider to be) really bleak odds, yet somehow things just 'change' for the better. I have NO idea how it works, but it is blissful and wonderful and I love it!
Sorry if that makes you want to puke, but I'm afraid that's the mood I'm in and I can't help it.
The reason I'm so impressed with how quickly I feel good again is because I KNOW enough about the type of mental symptoms I can experience to know that IT IS NOT NORMAL to be restored to wellbeing as quickly as I do. Its really not normal. I have done my research and I know about these things!
Sod therapy! Give me the healing powers of this spiritual programme anyway!

(Sorry I don't mean to offend those of you that make different choices, I only speak for MYSELF remember!)
By the way I like SOME therapists. They have their uses. I just PREFER this method, that's all. Also I don't have a 'reason' why I make that choice. My choices are made for me by the 'track record'. Whatever works BEST, well that's what I do, NOMATTER WHAT IT IS.
So if in future sometime, I were to come across a therapist that could create more powerful healing than my spiritual programme, I would dump the programme like a hot brick, and do what the therapist said. The reason I HAVEN'T done that is because my EXPERIENCE suggests the spiritual programme I have been shown is by FAR the most powerful choice. That's all.

3 comments:

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Meg Moran said...

I am glad you have moved on and are feeling better. I am always grateful too at how quickly my HP restores my sanity when I am willing to abandon myself to his care, rather than fighting back by getting "into" the problem with my own negative behaviors. I'm just beginning to understand that this "jellyfish syndrome" (yes I have it too) is just another aspect of the unmanageability of my life. BUT I will get what I need to do battle, when I need it, and God will take care of the rest. Thank you dear teacher for sharing with me.

recoveryroad said...

I'm glad you followed up the 'difficult guy' post. hanks for sharing what happened and your reaction(s) to it.

I'm still stuck in the fight or flight...or fight..or fight. Ahem. Fight mode.

That suggests to me that I have some way to go before I can detach from people like this. I'm probably needing to do some work on self-esteem and letting go of others' opinions of me. Or something.

Valuable stuff. Thanks for helping me stay sober another day.

Kenny